Monthly Archives: July 2014

July’s Knitting Adventures

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I haven’t been doing much knitting lately.  Which kinda makes me sad because I know that it calms me and gives me a sense of peace that very few other things can do (coloring and taking pictures comes close), yet when the mind is overactive and over engaged I find it very difficult to pick up knitting needles and knit – even a simple pattern.  I suspect it has to do with the fear I have when it comes to letting my mind rest during times like this.  When my mind rests then feelings often emerge and quite honestly I find those feelings difficult to address.   Yet I also acknowledge that when I don’t address the feelings then my body tends to react and my fibro goes into a flare however sometimes I’d take the physical discomfort over the emotional one.  That’s sort of where I’ve been lost in a world of busyness yet drained emotionally, physically and spiritually.  

At the beginning of July my favorite local yarn store offered a promotion where you would get a coupon for completion of UFO (in a knitters world a UFO is a UnFinished Object or project) and on a personal level I was being challenged by my counselor to take some time each day to create and discover that place of peace within and in doing so being able to construct a safe place for me to be with those feelings that I would prefer to think weren’t there.  I knew that July was the month to pick up some knitting and see where I might be led.  

It’s been a tough journey emotionally as I’ve reconnected with myself but for the past three weeks or so I’ve been knitting every day – some days I realize I’m doing it to do it but other days I can hardly wait for a time to sit and be with my knitting and the quietness that it brings.  I remember the joy that comes when the yarn glides through my fingers and as a project begins to take shape right before my eyes, without much brain power (that’s because I’m working on projects that don’t take much more than the knowledge between a knit and purl row).  I’m given that peace and a sense of being created by a loving God as I create with each stitch.  In a lot of ways knitting binds me together.  

Even though my completion of UFO’s has been limited to two small projects, I’m pleased that I took the challenge because I know that in time a bigger project will be completed both in tangible and intangeable ways.  I’ve completed a stuffed owl which now sits on our bed — I love owls and am in love with this cute addition to our room.  I also completed a necklace of sorts which I’m not pleased with but it’s done and no longer on my needles or taking up space amidst my yarn and projects!  Although it’s not finished or even nearly finished I’ve made headway on my first ever sweater – somedays I wonder if I will ever be finished.  I’ve made it my goal to finish this sweater as I’m sure there will be a huge sense of accomplishment as I will be able to have crossed something off of my knitting bucket list!   As for my inner journey into the peace and connectedness with both myself and my creator – well that journey continues on.  

It’s so important to know what grounds you and connects you (even if that means some hard work) but I encourage you along with myself to continue to find ways to care for yourself.  Great things are bound to come!

Another Year

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It’s hard for me to believe that today is the last day of being 40.  Turning 41 seems like a bigger deal than turning 40.  I guess because I feel as if I have been through a year of physical challenges and the emotional ones that go along with it and at some level hope this isn’t what all years will look like.  But I’m taking this day to begin a New Years resolution of sorts – making changes in the way that I handle life around me.  Some of those changes may be a bit scary and some of them come with a sense of relief.  If I want to live another 40 years I know that it’s time to put into practice some of the very things that I tell those I pastor on a regular basis.  It’s time to do some things that refresh me and allow my energy and God’s love and grace to flow throw me.  

During the past year my life seemingly fell apart, childhood trauma hit me again and this time as a flying brick coming out of no where.  I wasn’t expecting it to rehaunt my life but it did and it forced me into a major depressive episode which led to new meds and a new therapist.  It also was the leading cause in a medical leave of absence from the church I serve.  One of the toughest things I had to do was to stop being a pastor to others and allow some to care for me.  It wasn’t long after my return to work that I had a hysterectomy and appendectomy – another tough and emotional event.   As my 40th year was drawing to a close I returned to Canada to officiate at my grandfather’s funeral.  This proved to be a time filled with great blessing and a time of sadness as I learnt new things about my family of origin and yet was blessed with a reunion of sorts with my Aunt, Uncle,and cousins and got to meet an Aunt I’d never met.  I hope that these new and reformed relationships will grow as time goes by. I celebrated my 16th year of ordination and thus faithful service to the Moravian Church – service to a God I love and a church I deeply appreciate and care for.  

So today I spent time not only looking back over the past year but more looking into the year that lies ahead.  This morning I spent some time with my counselor and I can’t begin to emphasize how much of a life saver she was as I travelled through this past year (and I can’t help but say if you are considering getting a counselor – do it, it just might save your life too but at the very least it will enrich it).  This afternoon I’ll spend some time learning about continued ways to serve the church and this evening will be topped off with some time of doing what I love to do most knitting!

As I enter a new year of life I pray that I may more fully become the person that God created and continues to create and call me to be.  I know that takes a commitment on my part to tend to myself – my whole self- body, spirit and mind.  I make this commitment and look forward to watching the ways that will help me to grow.  I look forward to creating more (hopefully finishing my first knitted sweater), coloring more, taking time to take more pictures and letting the spirit recreate and create a new in me.  I certainly look forward to enhancing my ability to minister and going on my first cruise in February with other revgals.  Lastly, I look forward to a more uplifting year filled with the peace and hope that comes when claimed as a child of God! 

 

Organizational Style – Friday Five Style

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What a fun Friday Five over at RevGal’s this week.  Being organized is something I long to be but never quite acheive.  Everytime we move I vow it should be different here but after a few months some rooms are unorganized again — it’s like some rooms are just bound to be a chaos.  So if you feel like playing along with this week’s Friday Five please do but let me know in the comment section.  Who knows maybe together we can all have organized dwelling places – here’s what it says and the challenge on the RevGals sit:

“My daughter told me that she and her partner have different ways of organizing: my daughter puts it all in a pile, while her spouse files it. My daughter is definitely connected to me, as I tend to be a stacker of papers, photos, letters, books, clothes, etc. I am wanting to get rid of some of these piles, which I periodically do. Instead of rearranging them, I need to recycle them. So for this Friday Five, Let’s look at our organizational skills and/or clutter:

1. How do you organize? Is there a difference with various objects?

2. Do you have any cluttered spots in your office or home? Describe.

3. What do you organize well? And not?

4. What do you wish to de-clutter?

5. Accomplishments in organizing or de-cluttering:”

 

Here are my attempts of answers:

1.  My organization tends to differ from room to room, depending on what is in the room and what the room is used for.  However, generally I tend to organize things with like items.  For example legos are together and an attempt is made to go by color with the bricks and like items with each other (wheels with wheels etc).

2.  There are several cluttered spots in my home and office (which is in our home).  Mostly the clutter comes in piles on my office table and the spot where we keep stuff from Littleman’s school (work, take home papers, stuff from his Tuesday folder).  And the garage/laundry room seems to always be out of control – not to mention littleman’s playroom.

3.  I think for the most part my yarn and my sewing/craft room are organized better than anything.  My yarn get’s the cedar closet on the level we mostly live on.  It’s organized by fiber content and then some is organized by project or with matching skeins.  I could live in this closet I love the colors!  Likewise my sewing/craft room which is on the lower level or basement is usually organized like item with like item or material by fiber content or season.  However the disclaimer for this room is that it often gets items dumped it in when there seems to be no where else to put it.  So every so often I have to sort through a pile or two.   What don’t I organize well?  Certainly Littleman’s things especially clothes and toys.  I tend to have clothes sorted but never want t part with them. Which is beyond crazy I know because he’s never going to be that small again and I can’t keep them forever (maybe this blog post will inspire me to do something with the baskets in his room).  As for toys, similar things happen, I don’t want to get rid of them because they have such happy memories with them.  Not to mention the fact that as soon as I think I can get rid of them, he pulls them out to play with.  His playroom (along with the family room) are filled with toys.  Time to declutter those areas but who wants to help?  

4.  What do I want to de-clutter?  I think that answer came out in the end of #3 but in order to do that I need to have a couple of days where I have some energy and perhaps a little help not to mention for them to be littleman free.

5.  Accomplishments — well thankfully as a pastor I’ve moved enough for us to declutter every now and then because of weight restrictions on the move.  So well my house isn’t up for Better Homes and Garden or HGTV it’s not up for Hoarders either.

 

Friday Five

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Hello friends~~ 
It’s Friday, and TBTG! Even when I work all weekend, I still love that “Friday feeling”, you know? PLUS~~it’s summer! So, for a summer Friday Five, here are a few thoughts to ponder upon:

1. What makes you happy in your happy hour? (kicking off shoes, reading a book, a cocktail, lemonade~~essentially, what do you do to relax at the end of your week…)

2. I have a pair of shorts that I jump into the minute I get home for the evening–every day in the summer. What’s your favorite summer “garment”?

3. I have discovered, after living here in New England for 7 years, Ipswich fried clams. Oh. my. OH MY! Do you have a summer food you might splurge on once or twice in the summer?

4. Do you have a specific fond memory of summers of your childhood?

5. Use these words in a sentence: snail, baby duck, camper, ice cream, surfboard, cherries.

Have fun, and let us know you played in the comments!  

 

1.   When I’m able knitting makes me happy in my happy hour.  I also enjoy coloring and generally being creative.  But I also must say if the weather is right being in my hammock swing is a pretty happy place to be also!

2.  I love to get into my J’s if I think no one is going to be stopping by.

3.  Food doesn’t do much for me in terms of loves of it so I don’t think theres much that I splurge on a couple of times a summer.

4.  Summer camp — our Moravian Church Camp in the Canadian district (Camp Van-ES) was and is one of my favorite places on earth! No greater place to be then with adults who keep you safe and share the love of Christ with you.

5.   The snail and the baby duck took the camper with surfboards attached to get ice cream with cherries.